Choices Choices Choices....

I have finally admitted to myself that I cannot make any decisions on the catering menu for the wedding. I've read and looked through the choices probably more times then I can count...and each one looks great...so how can I decide??? It all goes back to me wanting the PERFECT wedding...which is so unrealistic b/c no matter how much planning and preparation I put into this there will be SOMETHING that messes up or isn't perfect. So I just need to pick one...better yet I'm letting James pick it...and I'm not going to think about it again...b/c I CANNOT decide and if I do I'll change my mind a few million times after to something else...haha.

So what has James chosen....

• Anti-Pasto Platter (An array of artichoke hearts, marinated mushrooms, queen stuffed olives, black olives, fresh mozzarella, feta cheese, proscuitto ham, petite corn on the cob and pepperoncini peppers, served with Focaccia bread).
• Chicken pasta primavera
• Jumbo mushroom caps stuffed with seasoned sausage
• Deviled eggs
• Beef tenderloin, roasted red pepper and capers served with garlic crostinis
• Seasonal fresh fruit favorites served with creamy yogurt dip in a carved pineapple half.

Sooo how does that sound? Yummo??? Haha...well don't be surprised if you come to the wedding and none of that is on the menu...b/c knowing Princess Mar Mar she'll change her mind and not let James decide.

BTW I'm feeling much nicer today...all b/c its FRIDAY...this week has been horrible with the ice/snow and not having power...and then having to come to work and deal with mean rude truck drivers.

Sometimes its just hard to be nice...

Satan sure has been attacking me this week....I'm trying to keep my cool though and let things slide. Its so hard though...sometimes you just want to tell people to go where the sun don't shine...lol. Thankfully though I haven't done that :).... he he he...yet anyways!



So my bible studies got cancelled this week and I sure wanted to go...I needed it...blah! I'm ready for good weather...I'm tired of the cold/ice/snow. I haven't been on my diet this week or gotten to exercise. I haven't been able to see James. I haven't been able to sleep in my own bed or be home. ALL because of the weather!!!!

On a positive note...I'm getting married to the most amazing guy in 255 days!!!! Yay!!!!!!!! Hopefully I'll get to see him before that though...haha.

Brrr.....

OMGosh its so freaking cold. Not only did it take me TWO hours to get home BUT when I did get home the electricity was out because some guy in a big truck thought he was no match for the ice and ran right into the power line pole. Thankfully two hours later....its all fixed! So it came on just in time to watch my shows tonight! Now, I wonder if I'm going to be able to make it to work tomorrow.

So not much to say today...not much happened...pretty boring...haha!

The next two nights I'll be busy at bible studies. So I'll probably not post for a few days. Talk to you guys soon!!!

Wedding Update...259 Days

So I thought I would post a few pictures of some of the yummy things you might see at the wedding. I love our caterer and I know I'm not going to be disappointed and nor will our guest. So many details though...I just wonder how it all will pan out. I find myself daily making mental check lists of everything I have to do. I think I should be a wedding planner. I'm great at organization, details, and punctuality. Haha....NOT! I'd kill myself if I had to plan weddings...I can barely take planning my OWN. I might not even make it....lol.

Boring Boring Boring

Boring Saturday so far...James is at the UofA basketball with Paul and so me and Sophie are home laying in bed watching movies. Nothing to do and no where to go today. Not that I'm complaining...because I do love days like this. There will be a time in my life where days like this will seist to exist. So I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts. So that being said I'm going to give myself a facial and pedicure and be in bliss....

Ready for the weekend!!!!!!!!!

Good news!!! Harper had a great day today and she is well on her to being able to go home. You know when things get hard and we tend to feel sorry for ourselves and get depressed that's the BEST time to look at your blessings. Kelly (Harper's mom) has a prayer blog and not only does she have a list of women praying to get pregnant she also has a list of women praying for a spouse. It made me realize how much I've taken James for granted. He is so amazing and he would do anything for me. I prayed my whole life for him and thankfully I didn't have to wait till I'm 30 or 40 to find him. I'm so ready to be Mrs. Arnold!!! :)

We meet the caterer tomorrow so I'm excited about that. I have lots of questions and details I want to go over so hopefully she's prepared...haha. Now, the only thing I really have left to get is my dress...dun dun dun...I feel the clock counting down on that one. I'm just dreading it because I'm not at my ideal weight. So I'm going to try to put it off till April or May. Anyways, other then that we don't have anything planned this weekend. We're trying to save all our money right now so we probably won't be going out and doing much this weekend. Lucky James is going to the Razorback basketball game Saturday night with his cousin Paul.

Well tomorrow is FRIDAY....YAY! It's been a long week and I'm ready for a couple days off to spend time with my honey doo! Woo Woo!!!

Praise Him!

I'm am so freaking happy! There are a few things that I've been stressing over and praying to God about and it just amazes me how He works everything out. You would think that I would never doubt or question Him and what His plan is but I'm only human and every day its a challenge and I have to work at trusting Him and knowing that he has a plan that's far better then anything I could ever imagine for myself. God is so good and I'm so blessed!

Anyways, my bridesmaid dress for my friend Danni's wedding got ordered today so I'm excited to see how it fits and everything. I'm really excited to go to my friends weddings this year and see what they have planned and maybe even get some ideas for mine :) . James mentioned to me today if we were going to take communion after our vows or do the sand thing or even light the candles. I have NO clue really what I want to do...or if I want to do any of that. I've also been trying to get some ideas on invitations...I know I'm definitely going to do my own and use the brown and pink colors. I'm also excited to lay out a menu for our reception on Friday. Fun Fun!!!

I can't think of a title....

Here's the bridesmaid dresses that I'm 99% sure I'm choosing. Not only have I changed my mind a million times on photographers and caterers...but I've also changed my color theme from yellow to purple to NOW brown and pink....haha...I know I know...I need to make a decision and stick to it. Now that I've decided my wedding colors I need to decide if I'll have all brown bridesmaids dresses or all pink bridesmaids dresses or mix. Michelle my MOH thinks she should wear pink and the other girls wear brown. I like that idea but indesisive me will change my mind a few times before I completely make my decision. I never realized how bad I was about making decisions...especially when that is my pet peeve about other people...lmao...weird??? I know! James pointed this out to me though and now I'm going to TRY to make a decision and stick to it since thats the part that stresses him out.

So has anyone taken full advantage of this sucky economy??? I know all we hear about is the unemployed and the high prices of everything....BUT one thing that is positive is for those who are wanting or looking to buy a house. Its definitely a buyers market right now...and these new subdivisions are sitting vacant. Soooo what does this mean??? They are leasing them at CHEAP prices with the option of lease to buying. Every month I've been watching how the prices are lowering and lowering...which might not be good for everyone BUT for me its AWESOME. I'm really hoping me and James can get a house rather then rent an apartment. Apartments are so small and it just doesn't feel like a home. Either way though....it'll work out and I'll be happy with what we have.

In other news....baby Harper should make a full recovery from everything and I'm so happy God has answered so many of our prayers. I can't wait to see that sweet baby in all her cute dresses. Makes me want a baby :( .....haha....just kidding! Someday...but not anytime soon!

Prayer NEEDED!

So there's a blog that I follow DAILY...and this woman is an amazing christian who is so inspiring. She has been married for 5 years and they tried for a long time to have a child and she finally got pregnant this year with a girl and she went in this morning to be induced and everything was fine until this baby girl was born they realized something was wrong. She has been flown to LR Children hospital and they are not giving her a favorable report. I'm in tears and my heart is heavy for this family. I know God can do anything and I'm praying that this beautiful baby girl will be healed. Please everyone pray for her...

If your soul is parched and thirsty and you feel weighed down by care, go to God's Word for refreshment. You'll find strength and comfort there...

The title pretty much sums up about how I've been feeling lately and what I need to do. The great thing is when life's demands are overwhelming we CAN find hope, guidance, and knowledge to help us in God's Word. How amazing is that...we have such an awesome God!

God has put a lot on my heart lately about how I've been living my life. It was a lot easier being a strong Christian and living every day in God's word when you go to a Christian school and all your influences are Godly and your active in church and there every day of the week. How can you fall??? Then, when you become an adult and enter the "real world" its easy to fall from God's path and go your own way. You become friends with the wrong people and you stop going to church and before you know it you don't have a single trace of God in your life.

All that being said this bible verse comes to mind...

Isaiah 40:18-31
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Beth Moore...

Tonight I got to talk to a really good christian friend of mine and I'm so glad I did. She is such an inspiration and positive influence. She told me to read this book called "Believing God" by Beth Moore that it has really been an encouragement with her and her future husband. So I can't wait to read it. Then, I came home tonight and my mom just started a bible study at FBC over the book of Ester and its also by Beth Moore (weird!) and I'm going to start it with her next Tuesday! I'm hoping for some encouragement...its been a really difficult past few months. Sometimes you get so wrapped up in you and your life you forget about the BIG picture and whats really important.

Lately, I've had such bad anxiety and just been depressed that its made me feel sick and go home and sleep. Stress and worry over wedding, money, weight, and ect ect. The only time I feel better and don't worry about anything is when I'm with James...and the past few days I haven't been able to spend as much time with him as I'd like. He's my escape from everything :) Oh how I love him so much and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I hope I never disappoint him and can be everything he will ever need in a wife. Anyways, I know that sounds cheesy but thats just how I feel. :)

Anyways, I'm praying that God will put my mind at ease about everything and show me something else to put my attention towards rather then MYSELF!

Sooo frustrated!!!!

I'm so frustrated with my weight!!!!!! Ahhhh why can't I be a size 2 and eat all the funk food I want???? It really sucks when all your friends are skinny like that too....and I wouldn't be sooo worried about it if I didn't have 2 weddings to be in. One of my really good friends sent me an email today of the bridesmaid dresses and they are cute and will look flattering for any size BUT I wanted to loose weight before I buy mine...and she wants us to buy them NOW...and the weddings not till June...so I'm freaking out. What sucks even more is her maid of honor is like a freaking size double zero...she never ate a piece of cake in her life...so naturally I hate her...lol. I'm just going to pray that I don't have to buy my dress till like the month before.

So not only am I frustrated...I'm also stressed. I have my own wedding stuff to figure out and then I have all these other weddings and with those come showers and parties....ahhhhhhhhh. This is supposed to be the best time of my life!!!??? Haha...ya I dunno about that. I can't think of whats more stressful...money problems or weight problems. So speaking of money...our photographer is going to be a LOT more then what I had planned...so now I really need a part time job. I know God will work everything out but at the same time its hard not to stress. Why can't life be easier???

275 OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg so it just hit me...the wedding is getting closer and closer....and I'm so excited!!!!!!!! I know I know...I'm crazy...some people might think thats a long time from now but its NOT me...it's going by so fast and before I know it it'll be here :) !!!!!! Yay!!!!!!

Anywho...I'm so ready for this weekend to be here...work has been dragging by this week. I'm still getting over this whole flu/cold thing I have and I have absolutely no energy and I'm going through a box of kleenexs by the hour. Since I've been not feeling the greatest lately I haven't seen James hardly at all. I miss him :(

So since I have no money anymore because it all goes to wedding stuff I'm having serious shopping withdraw symptoms...haha. I've been wanting some new shoes, a coach purse, and various other items. What I would do for a new purse....I want one of these....

I've been wanting this coach purse for a while...

This is a new Dooney & Bourke bag I'm in LOVE with

This week is going slow...

So its Wednesday but it feels like it should be a Friday. Blah!!!! What a day...with being late to work because my alarm didn't go off and then having MAJOR problems with payroll fixing my check. Anyways, did anyone watch Biggest Loser last night? I didn't even know it came on last night so I'm pissed...I knew the new season was going to start this month but I didn't know so soon! This season is going to be AWESOME!!!!! Can't wait...

Ok so I'm super excited this weekend because I'm going to go see two movies I've been really really wanting to go see...and those are Marley and Me AND Bride Wars. I'll let you know how they are.

Well, I don't have much to say this posting...I'm so full I can barely think...haha...me and James just went to Mamma Fu's...YUMMO!!! If you haven't tried it then you definitely should...its in Bentonville.

Speaking of food...I am totally going to make myself exercise every day till the wedding day...starting tomorrow...lol

Finally all better!

So after days and days of being in bed sick with the flu I'm pretty much back to normal. Yay!!! Thankfully I got lots of sleep and am definitely feeling rested. Anyways, not much to post about tonight. I've been watching My Big Fat Redneck Wedding on CMT all evening...they are having a marathon...haha! Seriously the funniest thing I've ever seen...like I've seen rednecks but this takes it to a WHOLE other level. I couldn't imagine having a mudding themed wedding, marrying my brother, or having a beer pyramid cake. Thankfully I'm a little bit more civilized...haha!

As far as wedding planning goes...this month I'll determine the menu we're gonna have. We have an appointment with Thetford Photography on Friday. This will be our 2nd photographer...and I'm hoping we can keep this one under $2,000. I've also been thinking about what kind of wedding band James and I want, if we're going to have a videographer, and what kind of flowers I want for the reception. I've decided I'm going to do my own flowers...I know I can do the bouquets but I'm not sure if I can do the tall centerpieces I'm thinking of. I've been watching all kinds of flower arranging how to videos...haha...so watch me order all these flowers and they come dead or don't come in time....or most likely...me "think" I can do it and last minute I realize I'm in over my head. The great thing is that me doing my own flowers will cost under $300 and if I got the same thing at a florist it would cost me $2000 if not more. HUGE savings!!!! Ok enough about wedding stuff...I'm sure I've bored you enough. :)

Prayer Requests : Mymom still hasn't found a job so pray that she can find something in the next month.

Of course I would get sick the days I'm off....

So everyone has been sick around me and I just thought I got off without getting sick...but nope...it caught up with me. The weather has been so nice this weekend and I had a lot of plans but instead I'm home in bed. I feel like I'm getting worse every day...but hopefully it'll take a turn today and I'll start to feel better.

Anyways, I can't believe its already 2009 and I know this year is just going to fly by. It already has...but I'm ready for it to...because one of the most important days of my life is this year and I can't wait!!! I still sit here and think to myself, "OMG I'm getting married"....and I feel like the 2nd part of my life will begin. I just can't wait to be married and have children!!!

Oh and good news....my best friend Michelle got accepted to nursing school and starts tomorrow. She will be finished in December so its a pretty fast paced program. I'm so excited for her though and especially thrilled that she'll be moving back to Fayetteville afterward. Only a little sad about the fact I won't get to see her as much since she'll be so busy with school.

Best of 2008 and James Birthday!!!

So here are some of my favorite things of 2008....

My first Valentines with James and it was the BEST one I've ever had. It's going to be hard to ever beat it. My favorite movie...Mamma Mia!!!!!

2008 Election and Sarah Palin

Olympics (Michael Phelps)

Also loved the movie Sex in the City

Trips to Little Rock going to see Michelle and McKenna :)

My Camera I got for Christmas!!!

Getting Engaged and my ring!!!!!!! Definitely the best thing that happened to me :)

Britney Spears new cd

So also James birthday was on the 30th and I made him his favorite casserole "King Ranch Chicken" and I made him this lovely beautiful birthday cake ;) lol.....