Beth Moore...

Tonight I got to talk to a really good christian friend of mine and I'm so glad I did. She is such an inspiration and positive influence. She told me to read this book called "Believing God" by Beth Moore that it has really been an encouragement with her and her future husband. So I can't wait to read it. Then, I came home tonight and my mom just started a bible study at FBC over the book of Ester and its also by Beth Moore (weird!) and I'm going to start it with her next Tuesday! I'm hoping for some encouragement...its been a really difficult past few months. Sometimes you get so wrapped up in you and your life you forget about the BIG picture and whats really important.

Lately, I've had such bad anxiety and just been depressed that its made me feel sick and go home and sleep. Stress and worry over wedding, money, weight, and ect ect. The only time I feel better and don't worry about anything is when I'm with James...and the past few days I haven't been able to spend as much time with him as I'd like. He's my escape from everything :) Oh how I love him so much and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I hope I never disappoint him and can be everything he will ever need in a wife. Anyways, I know that sounds cheesy but thats just how I feel. :)

Anyways, I'm praying that God will put my mind at ease about everything and show me something else to put my attention towards rather then MYSELF!

Sooo frustrated!!!!

I'm so frustrated with my weight!!!!!! Ahhhh why can't I be a size 2 and eat all the funk food I want???? It really sucks when all your friends are skinny like that too....and I wouldn't be sooo worried about it if I didn't have 2 weddings to be in. One of my really good friends sent me an email today of the bridesmaid dresses and they are cute and will look flattering for any size BUT I wanted to loose weight before I buy mine...and she wants us to buy them NOW...and the weddings not till June...so I'm freaking out. What sucks even more is her maid of honor is like a freaking size double zero...she never ate a piece of cake in her life...so naturally I hate her...lol. I'm just going to pray that I don't have to buy my dress till like the month before.

So not only am I frustrated...I'm also stressed. I have my own wedding stuff to figure out and then I have all these other weddings and with those come showers and parties....ahhhhhhhhh. This is supposed to be the best time of my life!!!??? Haha...ya I dunno about that. I can't think of whats more stressful...money problems or weight problems. So speaking of money...our photographer is going to be a LOT more then what I had planned...so now I really need a part time job. I know God will work everything out but at the same time its hard not to stress. Why can't life be easier???

275 OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg so it just hit me...the wedding is getting closer and closer....and I'm so excited!!!!!!!! I know I know...I'm crazy...some people might think thats a long time from now but its NOT me...it's going by so fast and before I know it it'll be here :) !!!!!! Yay!!!!!!

Anywho...I'm so ready for this weekend to be here...work has been dragging by this week. I'm still getting over this whole flu/cold thing I have and I have absolutely no energy and I'm going through a box of kleenexs by the hour. Since I've been not feeling the greatest lately I haven't seen James hardly at all. I miss him :(

So since I have no money anymore because it all goes to wedding stuff I'm having serious shopping withdraw symptoms...haha. I've been wanting some new shoes, a coach purse, and various other items. What I would do for a new purse....I want one of these....

I've been wanting this coach purse for a while...

This is a new Dooney & Bourke bag I'm in LOVE with

This week is going slow...

So its Wednesday but it feels like it should be a Friday. Blah!!!! What a day...with being late to work because my alarm didn't go off and then having MAJOR problems with payroll fixing my check. Anyways, did anyone watch Biggest Loser last night? I didn't even know it came on last night so I'm pissed...I knew the new season was going to start this month but I didn't know so soon! This season is going to be AWESOME!!!!! Can't wait...

Ok so I'm super excited this weekend because I'm going to go see two movies I've been really really wanting to go see...and those are Marley and Me AND Bride Wars. I'll let you know how they are.

Well, I don't have much to say this posting...I'm so full I can barely think...haha...me and James just went to Mamma Fu's...YUMMO!!! If you haven't tried it then you definitely should...its in Bentonville.

Speaking of food...I am totally going to make myself exercise every day till the wedding day...starting tomorrow...lol

Finally all better!

So after days and days of being in bed sick with the flu I'm pretty much back to normal. Yay!!! Thankfully I got lots of sleep and am definitely feeling rested. Anyways, not much to post about tonight. I've been watching My Big Fat Redneck Wedding on CMT all evening...they are having a marathon...haha! Seriously the funniest thing I've ever seen...like I've seen rednecks but this takes it to a WHOLE other level. I couldn't imagine having a mudding themed wedding, marrying my brother, or having a beer pyramid cake. Thankfully I'm a little bit more civilized...haha!

As far as wedding planning goes...this month I'll determine the menu we're gonna have. We have an appointment with Thetford Photography on Friday. This will be our 2nd photographer...and I'm hoping we can keep this one under $2,000. I've also been thinking about what kind of wedding band James and I want, if we're going to have a videographer, and what kind of flowers I want for the reception. I've decided I'm going to do my own flowers...I know I can do the bouquets but I'm not sure if I can do the tall centerpieces I'm thinking of. I've been watching all kinds of flower arranging how to videos...haha...so watch me order all these flowers and they come dead or don't come in time....or most likely...me "think" I can do it and last minute I realize I'm in over my head. The great thing is that me doing my own flowers will cost under $300 and if I got the same thing at a florist it would cost me $2000 if not more. HUGE savings!!!! Ok enough about wedding stuff...I'm sure I've bored you enough. :)

Prayer Requests : Mymom still hasn't found a job so pray that she can find something in the next month.

Of course I would get sick the days I'm off....

So everyone has been sick around me and I just thought I got off without getting sick...but nope...it caught up with me. The weather has been so nice this weekend and I had a lot of plans but instead I'm home in bed. I feel like I'm getting worse every day...but hopefully it'll take a turn today and I'll start to feel better.

Anyways, I can't believe its already 2009 and I know this year is just going to fly by. It already has...but I'm ready for it to...because one of the most important days of my life is this year and I can't wait!!! I still sit here and think to myself, "OMG I'm getting married"....and I feel like the 2nd part of my life will begin. I just can't wait to be married and have children!!!

Oh and good news....my best friend Michelle got accepted to nursing school and starts tomorrow. She will be finished in December so its a pretty fast paced program. I'm so excited for her though and especially thrilled that she'll be moving back to Fayetteville afterward. Only a little sad about the fact I won't get to see her as much since she'll be so busy with school.

Best of 2008 and James Birthday!!!

So here are some of my favorite things of 2008....

My first Valentines with James and it was the BEST one I've ever had. It's going to be hard to ever beat it. My favorite movie...Mamma Mia!!!!!

2008 Election and Sarah Palin

Olympics (Michael Phelps)

Also loved the movie Sex in the City

Trips to Little Rock going to see Michelle and McKenna :)

My Camera I got for Christmas!!!

Getting Engaged and my ring!!!!!!! Definitely the best thing that happened to me :)

Britney Spears new cd

So also James birthday was on the 30th and I made him his favorite casserole "King Ranch Chicken" and I made him this lovely beautiful birthday cake ;) lol.....